Berthing the Sinking Ship
24th May 2006, Wednesday
It's really oxymoronic that I had no love lost for my naval days yet I had such high tendency to use naval terms to describe my life...(such as changing lyrics of songs with common phrase like "joining the navy")..Speaking of which the naval department sent some useless magazines to me, hoping that I would be a wee bit interested in what the assfreaks that remained the force were making a fool out of themselves with...
Well it is interesting to draw some analogy between my current career state with time spent in the navy...
I am now like going through the "leave clearing" period just before I ORD back then...
Unlike then with immediate effect of resignation, I don't think I can apply leave "legally", not that I am in dire needs anyway..
There are plenty of stuffs to do clearance with and very much like the clearance process in the latter days of navy when I had to hunt up and down for some mothers' sons to just simply sign...
Did a subtle negotiation with my supervisor with regards to my final day here will be brought forward to the Friday before as I had wanted...
With that fixed, I then sent e-mails to the HR department of the new place who is quite urgent to know the date I can start my stint there, so that they can duly informed my future bosses.
I also send an update on my status to that French supervisor of mine, hoping to show some entusiasim in terms of picking up the things there as fast as I could and to get acquainted with my new colleagues (hopefully and BY had reassured that there will be no JxMMy 2, 3 & 4)
I felt my 4 years here, at the end of the day I most probably attained a specialist status without much progress; as my superior admiring my eloquency and my way with words and presentation and perhaps my professionalism...but not for my diligence and passion for work as in both cases I had none, with end of the day, money and time counts...but then isn't that what is work for?
For every single person who is harping over my self confidence, there would be one enemy made for my candid and at times tactless behavior when handling users here.. Of course I had let my temperament get the better of me both here and back in the Navy...
I would not take extra efforts in both cases to do what is extra outside my responsibility and would indulge in my own stuff once work is done..the chronic lack of initiative could be the root of my demise and I could have no qualms over it..
In both cases, I am always thrown with secondary duties such as dubious role fo fire warren durong fire drills or like this afternoon, entertaining a bunch of Temasek JC students who came for a tour in our facilities when I feel the Museum of Civilization could be a much better choice...
Over the course of time I had gained some sound companionship with my co-workers but in similar fashion all the good ones starting to depart for greener pastures while the lousy ones stuck behind...
Then I had made some sworn enemies whom I love to hate (it's quite obvious who...)
Well my time at Navy can be mind-tormenting and at times feel like my life had been sinking like a ship in a whirlpool and for the past few months, I had got that recurring feeling with my current job...
But of course one thing the days at Navy can never compare to work life now would be the liberation from all the regimental crap which I am still hating till this very day...
26th of June would mark yet another journey in my career and whether I would be manuveouring a sinking ship..we shall see...better stock up the buff bags anyway....
It's really oxymoronic that I had no love lost for my naval days yet I had such high tendency to use naval terms to describe my life...(such as changing lyrics of songs with common phrase like "joining the navy")..Speaking of which the naval department sent some useless magazines to me, hoping that I would be a wee bit interested in what the assfreaks that remained the force were making a fool out of themselves with...
Well it is interesting to draw some analogy between my current career state with time spent in the navy...
I am now like going through the "leave clearing" period just before I ORD back then...
Unlike then with immediate effect of resignation, I don't think I can apply leave "legally", not that I am in dire needs anyway..
There are plenty of stuffs to do clearance with and very much like the clearance process in the latter days of navy when I had to hunt up and down for some mothers' sons to just simply sign...
Did a subtle negotiation with my supervisor with regards to my final day here will be brought forward to the Friday before as I had wanted...
With that fixed, I then sent e-mails to the HR department of the new place who is quite urgent to know the date I can start my stint there, so that they can duly informed my future bosses.
I also send an update on my status to that French supervisor of mine, hoping to show some entusiasim in terms of picking up the things there as fast as I could and to get acquainted with my new colleagues (hopefully and BY had reassured that there will be no JxMMy 2, 3 & 4)
I felt my 4 years here, at the end of the day I most probably attained a specialist status without much progress; as my superior admiring my eloquency and my way with words and presentation and perhaps my professionalism...but not for my diligence and passion for work as in both cases I had none, with end of the day, money and time counts...but then isn't that what is work for?
For every single person who is harping over my self confidence, there would be one enemy made for my candid and at times tactless behavior when handling users here.. Of course I had let my temperament get the better of me both here and back in the Navy...
I would not take extra efforts in both cases to do what is extra outside my responsibility and would indulge in my own stuff once work is done..the chronic lack of initiative could be the root of my demise and I could have no qualms over it..
In both cases, I am always thrown with secondary duties such as dubious role fo fire warren durong fire drills or like this afternoon, entertaining a bunch of Temasek JC students who came for a tour in our facilities when I feel the Museum of Civilization could be a much better choice...
Over the course of time I had gained some sound companionship with my co-workers but in similar fashion all the good ones starting to depart for greener pastures while the lousy ones stuck behind...
Then I had made some sworn enemies whom I love to hate (it's quite obvious who...)
Well my time at Navy can be mind-tormenting and at times feel like my life had been sinking like a ship in a whirlpool and for the past few months, I had got that recurring feeling with my current job...
But of course one thing the days at Navy can never compare to work life now would be the liberation from all the regimental crap which I am still hating till this very day...
26th of June would mark yet another journey in my career and whether I would be manuveouring a sinking ship..we shall see...better stock up the buff bags anyway....
Japanese word of the day:沈降(Sinking) The best solution is to find some life raft to keep yourself afloat at all times such as a hobby or a wife...
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