Midweek Dilemma

4th May 2005, Wednesday

I got a feeeling that midweek always leave people in doubts and bewildered and perhaps cooped up with the work to be done...

This would be the point when the engine is already running in smooth momemtum and work is to be accumulated, yet you got the notion to try to clear the work within the next 2 days so you could leave Friday relatively relax...

This morning, our supervisor gathered the entire lot of us into our service room to brief about a few outstanding issues...

One of those is of course the lab-space acquisition I mentioned about yesterday. I could sense the unwillingness in her words but I could also capture the helplessness as the decision was assented by the deputy director (whom we labeled as "Old Hag" if you would be interested to know)..
Our supervisor just told us to pack whatever we have no in urgent need to allocate to the space dedicated to us in another level (which is of course of extreme inconvenience).. Then again don't forget we are also known as "The Push-around service Lab" (and not just JxMMy alone)

Another issue she brought up was that our institute is going to make a much apparent aid to outstanding and long-serving lab biologist with a chance to relish a Phd (not permanent brain damage)... It is only open to locals and at least have served the institute for 3 years, and of course need a basic Bachelor's degree/honors ...hmm... match my criteria exactly.. However it won't be easy to grab a place as the qualification interview would be brutal and in our institute brutal is something close to "holocast" or "point of no return"...
There's another issue that if we wanted to embark on our own project our current service lab status is inadequate, thus there's a need to move to another lab to do so.... which itself is a pretty tough decision to make...

Our supervisor also mentioned that the institute is also gradually going to upgrade existing batch of lab biologists with a chance at just normal bachelors or masters, thus improve on our own self-value... But it is only time before this would actually be realized...

As the girls are grinning with a tug of the heart on whether such opportunities would be an ideal way to upgrading themselves and thus increase their employability before adjourning to greener pastures...Me myself is in the douldrum on whether I have that sufficient level of interest/energy/passion to do a research and eventually grab that elusive qualifications...
But there's also a chance that I might not succeed and I'm too embedded in my comfort zone at the moment, a Phd has never came across in my agenda... Of course there's always a need to upgrade yourself...
Sigh.. it's tough..and for now just procrastinate to perhaps after settling down with a family and see how (I can bet my last penny that that's not a wise decision but since I made it, I gotta uphold it)

Meanwhile, the prank I mentioned yesterday about Eddy's blog been hacked is totally untrue and he himself decided to close it down...for reasons only perhaps can be found in the future episodes of the X-Files...

Well seeing Dad in agony from his injury is hard, and really wished his aged bones could recuperate soon, and perhaps he should not get involve in such high risk tasks anymore...but then again he would never listen would he?

Japanese word of the day: 困った ~ko-ma-tta~ (puzzled) About my future path of course...